I have always been worried about my eggs.
But this particular journey began on September 12, 2016 at a routine check up with my gynecologist when I asked for if he could just check on my eggs.
“You’re young and everything looks great. But I will order the blood work for you.”
This was not the first time I had asked about how my eggs were doing. Since I turned 30 it has been of greater concern for me. I never thought that at 30 I would be single, living in a little apartment all alone. My life was supposed to be filled with babies and dance lessons and soccer practice and family dinners. For as long as I can remember this was always how I planned my life. Living in a comfy house with my successful, charming husband and our countless, adorable children.
If you haven’t already figured it out, life doesn’t always follow your plans.
A few nights later my phone rang at almost 9 PM, which if you know me, is past my weeknight bedtime. I hesitantly answered the “Unknown Caller”.
It was my doctor. The call started out routine as it usually did and he informed me that my PAP came back fine…BUT….
he was a little concerned about my AMH number.
I have heard a lot of acronyms in my life, but never this one. Little did I know how important those three little letters would actually be.
My doctor continued to tell me how for a woman my age, (34 at the time) .6 was a fairly low number. He did not want me to be too alarmed but referred me to a local fertility doctor to get a better idea of my situation.
And there it was.
There was no need to worry about the unknown any longer. I did in fact have an egg “problem”.
So I did what every average American does when they need information. I went straight to Google for the answers I was looking for.
What is AMH?
How can I make it better?
How did I get a low AMH?
Are my eggs bad? Or do I just not have many?
Or do I have a lot and they are just bad?
Will I ever be able to have a baby?
I soon found out that AMH is not an FDA approved test to decipher whether or not a woman in fact has a low egg count. That is what the number claims to show. My AMH of .6 put me in the low category for ovarian reserve; closer to that which you would expect from a woman age 40 or more.
Oh…so this number is unreliable. I’m certain it is because I must have plenty of eggs. Although I was always worried about my eggs in actuality I never thought my concerns would come to fruition. So the number must be wrong and the fertility doctor will do a few tests to put my mind at ease and assure me that I in fact have plenty of healthy, happy eggs waiting to create a big family for me someday.
Boy….do plans change….